today was HORRIBLE.
i hate maths.
i tell you.
i hate it.
i got 11/30 for a maths test.
&i'm NOT proud of it.
I TOTALLY DONT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING!
then i was like so angry cause i didnt understand and i didnt want to go to tuition that is so far cause it takes up so much of my time and claudia didnt want me to go same tuition as her so i didnt know what to do. but at the same time i wanted tution that is nearby and in small groups and stuff.
&GAHHHH!
i wanted to cry cause i didnt know what to do.
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then i didnt want to talk cause when i talk i felt like i would burst out crying.
&it would be very embarrassing.
so i pretty much "attituded" you guys today.
sorry...
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i just didnt know what to do.

&i tried to study.
i really did.
but i ended up watching 命中注定我爱你 episode 2.
CLARA!
WHY CANT YOU BE DETERMINED!!
so angry with myself.
ordered pizza for dinner.
cause the market was closed so mummy couldnt buy food so we have NO FOOD.
&mummy and daddy not eating dinner at home.
so pizza would be fine.

back to maths.
here's what i DONT understand:
-alpha beta
-distinct and real roots
-congruence and similarity
-inequalities
-a bit of log
SEE??
I'M SO GONNA DIE FOR MATHS.
i hope there is a pure science class where we take triple science and NORMAL maths.
then it wouldnt be so hard anymore.
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i feel so helpless.
what should i do?


its no longer the same as before.
i hate it.
why cant i be as optimistic as last time?
why must you be so temperemental?
why must you keep getting on my nerves?
i dunno what to do about you.
i really dont.
someone help me.
please.