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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

POST EXAM DISORDER @ 8:44 PM

hah.
look at my title:
:'(

today during physics-which-was-taken-over-by-bio
i cried.
& i didnt know why.
PFFFFFFT.
):
&that's kind of dumb.
post exam stress?
i feel like screaming sometimes you know.
especially after getting papers.
&since i cant scream,
all i can do is say ARGH many many times.
oh and recently i realised i really cant stand the sound of my mother's voice anymore.
when i listen to her talking to me sometimes i wanna scream...
to me it's louder than a ferrari going at 24okm/h.
i wanna cover my ears and yell my heart out.
but obviously i cant.
&&sometimes i feel like scolding the people around me for very trival things.
really really trival things.
&i'm sad+annoyed+angry+ god-knows-what i'm feeling inside.
i try to tell myself DONT FEEL THIS WAY
cause it's petulant.
but it's just so hard.
&i've tried to tell people.
all i've got to is the you know what? part.
then i'll change to another thing like: you know what? *pause* my dog's so cute.
&you know what?
i'm scared.
really scared.
i hope this is just PMS.

oh great.
i'm crying again.

It's not the last farewell ♥